"My friend"

Tomorrow, I will lose "my friend". As long as I remember my friend has always been there with me. Through every birthday, holiday, and event that has happened, it has been sitting there right on me. When people would look at my friend and ask "what is that" or laugh, I would be there defending it." Its sad my friend never had a name. Its been many years and now we must part. My friend may be turning bad so it must go. It will be missed but excited to see what life is like without my dear friend.

Chasten

A little over a week ago, Chasten went to the specialists at Primary Children to figure out what is wrong with him. He has been diagnosed with Chronic stool retention and encupresis due to constipation which has caused his colon to enlarge. Now he has a mega colon. The good news is his colon should shrink over awhile the bad news is we have to have him go through colon cleanings and cleaning maintenance. This is not fun for him and not fun for us but over time his colon will shrink and his body will tell him when he should go "dump". After three months of cleaning he will go back to the dr and they will be able to examine why he gets constipated or if he has IBS. I am not excited about his cleaning out sessions but I am so glad to start getting some answers. It nice not hearing his tummy hurts but now his other end hurts. The one thing i am amazed about is how if your dumper doesn't work your whole system is affected, especially the stomach. God loves to make me strong!!!!

Happy Birthday Angels

Five years ago, I had the most wonderful experience (yes i can say that NOW!!!)giving birth to my angels. The last five years have really taught me so many lessons. I learned that I can live at the hospital and still be a mom and survive (thanks to so much help). I learned that pollution is very bad and not to take a green air day for granted. Health is everything and the hardest thing for a mother is to watch her sick child suffer and only wish I could go through it instead. Feeling left out is not always a bad thing (yes, my boys love playing with each other and sometimes mom is NOT welcome). Learning that life does happen fast and watching my babies grow up with knowing that this experience and stage will not be repeated wants me to keep them little as long as possible. AND THE BEST THING I JUST LEARNED TODAY!!!!! Caleb does learn by example (thanks Dave) and teaches his brother how to snore properly.

New Year 2010

The new year has officially arrived.

Kids are back into school and starting to get back into a positive routine. As each year comes to a close i reflect on that year and what took place in my life. First thing i must say is I am soooo glad 2009 is over with. Last year was a challenging year from some health problems to family problems. But last year was filled with HIGH's (david coming home) to the Lowest of lows (personal issues).

This year my goal is not to focus on the problems of last year but to leave those behind. This year is already looking positive due to me graduating with my Bachelor's Degree in June. I am so looking forward to that huge event in my life. Also, in 2010 Colten will get his drivers permit, finish 9th grade and become an official High Schooler. While my Coby will finish 6th grade and move onto Jr. High. I cant believe how old my kids are getting. Thinking back to when Colten was a baby, I thought his life would go by slow and now I cant believe how quickly he is growing up. So my resolution is to spend more quality time with each of my children because before I know it, they will be out of the house.

Live, Laugh, and Love is the motto I am focusing this year on.

2010 Here we come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Update

Things have been crazy. Halloween has come and gone and now we are looking forward to Thanksgiving. Chasten has had some issues we are trying to resolve and then we have the other family issues such as school, cleaning, and life's little chores.

Our life has been living one day at a time due to the military. We were going to go active and were told we would be moving by Oct. 1st to either Ft. Hood or Ft. Bliss, but God had other plans. Instead, the military told David he would leave on Nov. 10th for training and then me and then kids would be moving in Feb. Now, as of today, we are staying for another two years.

This yo-yo made me think about God's plan for us. Maybe when we first felt it would be best to go active, it was. But God said, thanks for listening but that was not my intention. Now think about your life and figure out your next step. So we have. David has decided to change schools and go up to Weber State and join the ROTC program. This is a two-year program for him and when he graduates, he will then be an officer and commission active duty then.

In the meantime, I have decided to help out and go back to work. So I am currently looking for employment. I am just taking this until I finish my Bachelor's program in June when I can get employment in the field of my choice. Then it looks like I am going straight into my Master's (scary).

The plan we have right now is scary because my children are getting older and by the time David commissions Colten will be close to graduating High School and begin his leg of his life. Its scary how fast time fly's and how important it is to cherish the moments we have because they go past so quickly.

Life is hard but I know God has a plan, we just have to really put away our wants and listen. Having faith in what he has in store of us is hard but will hopefully be worth every second.