Out of the mouths of Babes

The other day, I was on the phone with Tiffany and Chasten started having this conversation with me. I laughed and couldn't believe how much faith a young child really has. It went something like this.

Chasten: Mom, Jesus died?

Mom: Yes, Jesus Died

Chasten: When did Jesus die?

Mom: A long time ago chasten

Chasten: No, at church

Mom: Yes, chasten we talked about Jesus at church

Chasten: Not right

Mom: ok chasten what are you asking.

Chasten: When Jesus died with nails?

Mom: Yes, Chasten Jesus died with nails.

CHasten: No, wrong answer

Mom: Huh?

Chasten: Come here (walked me to the fridge, where we have a picture of Christ resurrected with angels). There mom.

Mom: Yes, Chasten Jesus is with the angels.

Chasten: He is alive?

Mom: Yes, Chasten, Jesus is alive.

Chasten: who made him alive?

Mom: God did

Chasten: Huh? who?

Mom: Heavenly Father

Chasten: Jesus a kid?

Mom: No, Jesus lives in Heaven, like grandpa.

Chasten: And Mojo

Mom: yes with Mojo.

And he walked off to bed. Out of the mouths of babes!!!!

Life is a Roller Coaster so Hang on!!!!

Yesterday was one of the biggest up and down days I have had in a veryyyyyyyy longggggg time. I learned so many different things first, never put off what's important today for tomorrow (this does not include dishes and cleaning), and second, dont believe anything until it is in writing. We wanted to tell everyone differently about our news but things don't work out as planned. To keep things as simple as possible this is how the story goes. David come home from deployment. Something happened out at the deployment (dont want to go into much detail). Went back to work and did not find the same satisfaction as before. We prayed and discussed what we both thought and decided it was time to try and change to the Active Component of the Army. This is where I learned dont believe anything. He sent in the paperwork, guard released him, put it into active and we were told that he would remain in Aviation and we would move before Oct. 1st. So we called our landlord (actually a few weeks before he gave us an ultimatum) and told him we were moving. I have been packing up everything in the house we wont need to take with us and waiting for hear where we will be heading. Yesterday, David went down to MEPS and everything changed. Army does not have a position in aviation open for him in his rank, so they told him he can go artillery or cav-scout. He decided to go Cav-scout and will leave on Nov. 10th to go to training, leaving me and the kids here until he is done (our original plan until we were told we would be gone by Oct. 1st). We will then get our PCS orders and learn where we will be moving to. Yesterday, the only thought that went through my head was "we are going to be homeless". David called up my landlord and we can stay (even though he had someone lined up to rent the place) small miracles do happen. So everyone in Utah is stuck with me and kids until Feb. The good part is with trainings he can come home for Christmas. So instead of unpacking (haven't packed the clothes yet) we are just going to leave everything in boxes and live this way for the next few months. One more winter in Utah. So yesterday I went from moving, to homeless, to back to where we started living in our house. What an emotional day and week. Now it is time to focus on saying Goodbye to Gramps and relishing in his life and what an inspirational man he was. Close your eyes and hang on...life is full of fun, being scared, and wondering what comes next but at the end it all levels out. (Sometimes its a little ride and sometimes its a big one). Just remember to have fun!!!!

You will be missed Gramps

Today, I heard about my last living grandfathers passing. We knew this would occur soon but still hoping and praying that he would make it for a few more weeks.

My Grandpa was an inspirational man, even though I never got to really know him like I wish I could have. My grandpa was the type of man who loved his father in heaven and found the positive of every situation.

Most know of my parents divorce which made it sometimes difficult to stay in contact. I have been thinking about what I remember most about my grandpa and I would have to say, when he would come up from Vegas stay in a hotel just to visit with us. We would also go and visit him in Vegas and he always had this accent and smile which made you feel like you were somebody special to him.

Grandpa if you were here and I had one more chance to tell you how I feel I would say,

Gramps,

You are a truly special person. You have faced many trials in your life from bringing your family to the United States from England to the health issues these last few years. I looked at you and see how close you are to God and now, gramps, you are with our glorious maker. You are in no more pain only surronded by happiness that no one will be able to understand. We will greive for our loss while celebrating your life. You have brought so much joy to so many, especially the little ones bouncing on your knee. We love you and miss you already.

P.S. The kids still remember the gumballs you got for each of them. You always love to spoil the little ones.

Thanks for the reminder moment

About a month ago (its about time, I posted this), My good friend Jonnie posted something on her facebook status that gave me that Oh yeah moment. Here is what she posted, "In 20 years, you won't care if that book was finished today or put off until tomorrow, if that game was watched now or if it was recorded for later, or even if the lawn isn't mowed perfectly right this second. But I can promise that someone special will remember that one night that you turned off the TV / put away that book / put off mowing the lawn to spend a little extra time with them. Make memories. (Jonnie Melendez, 2009)." Let me explain a little here, Lately I have been upset and frustrated and started closing myself off to the world which included my children. I was not the mom I should be to my children. I prayed that I would know what to do with my trials. The next day, Jonnie posted that (Jonnie, you probably wouldn't guess you were the answers to my prayers, lol) which gave me that "that is what I need to do." Since then I have spent more time with my kids. Once a week, the kids have their "special day" which is when they get one-on-one time with dad in the morning and mom at night. Some of the acitivites we have done is make bread with the twins, finger puppets, painted finger nails (sis of course), taught Coby how to play backgammon, made cookies with saibrynn, Took colten to the store and bought cookie dough, and played chess (not me, i dont remember what moves where). I feel what we do isn't that important but the conversation that takes place while we are spending this time together. I hope we are building memories for my kids and when they get older will spend the same or more quality time with their own family. This also proves that sometimes as adults we need a good "kick in the butt" to remind us what is important in life. Thanks Jonnie!!!

Been A Long Time

Wow, its been a long time since I blogged. Since David has been home we have had our trials but I feel there is hope which is something I was having a hard time with lately. Yesterday, We had some of our questions answered. Even though we will not have a definitive diagnosis for about a month, the specialist does believe we are on the right track. About a year ago, Caleb started having some issues. At first, I wasn't sure if he was really having issues or if was copying certain behaviors from our best friends son who has Autism. Overtime, I was telling David about the behaviors but he was unsure since he was across the world. After David got home, he also began noticing these odd behaviors so we talked to his early intervention teacher. She said she did not think he had Autism but he did show these behaviors at school. She suggested that he may have Sensory Integrated Disorder. We then began to look further. To make a long story short, He behaviors have gotten worse and yesterday we went and saw a therapist who specializes in young children and Sensory and fine motor disorders (this was a struggle, finding someone to help because of his age). She does think he has a sensory disorder but it will take a month to get a diagnosis due to having to do observations. She has told us that David and I have headed down the right direction with attempts we have made to help him, which was good news. She also is helping with some other techniques that will have to be used in order to help caleb. This disorder has been interesting to learn about. Most of the time, it is seen with children who have autism but can affect other children with neurological disorders. As hard as this disorder is, I know we will be able to help him, we just didn't know the steps or how to help him (which was extremely heartbreaking and difficult to deal with). We are looking forward to a more positive outlook but we also know it is going to take tons and tons of work, but we are up to the challenge as long as it helps caleb. For more information on SID or SPD check out http://www.sensory-processing-disorder.com/