14 Years and counting

Fourteen years ago today, I promised my life to my husband. Reflecting back to that day if you asked would you be married in 14 years, I would honestly say I dont know but I hope so. I have always been in this marriage for the long haul. If someone would of asked if I would be a military wife I would say "Hell no". Times have changed and 4 and a half years ago, a different man pledged to serve his country, no matter what the cost was. A different woman stood there accepting but not really excited about this road of the military life. Now, in the present, another woman emerges. A person who could not be prouder of her husband. A wife who could not imagine a different life. Sacrafices have to be made and that sacrafice is a difficult one but knowing why I have to give up my husband's company on this day, makes it a little easier ( i did say little). I dont know what the future will hold. Many changes will happen and we will change and continue to evolve. The one thing I do know is I love my husband more now than I did when he took my hand and I swore before God and family to be his wife. I love the example he gives to our children. I love how I am stronger because of him and how he wont let me hide behind him (sometimes I wish he still would let me do that). I dont know how he feels about being apart on this special day, but I know that even though I dont like it, part of my heart is with him and part of his heart is with me and I could not be a prouder wife. So today, I vow to him again that I will not be in bed depressed thinking I wish he was here. But instead I will be holding my children and thinking of how proud we are as a family for the choices he has made. This song Far away is dedicated to him: This time, This place Misused, Mistakes Too long, Too late Who was I to make you wait Just one chance Just one breath Just in case there's just one left 'Cause you know, you know, you know That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore On my knees, I'll ask Last chance for one last dance 'Cause with you, I'd withstand All of hell to hold your hand I'd give it all I'd give for us Give anything but I won't give up 'Cause you know, you know, you know That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore So far away Been far away for far too long So far away Been far away for far too long But you know, you know, you know I wanted I wanted you to stay 'Cause I needed I need to hear you say That I love you I have loved you all along And I forgive you For being away for far too long So keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore Believe it Hold on to me and, never let me go Keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore Believe it Hold on to me and, never let me go Keep breathing Hold on to me and, never let me go Keep breathing Hold on to me and, never let me go